Threshhold

Throughout my life I have always had an innate awareness of the moment. I think about it constantly. In life there are moments that reality as you know it shifts with no hope of return. It is in these surreal times that I see the tale of my life being played out in slow motion. At this moment I am nervously anticipating a life-changing event. I stand poised before this threshold and I feel the same as ever, with all the same hopes, fears and goals. However I know that there is this moment that I am careening towards in which my life will forever change and there are no breaks on this ride. With each advancing second I feel the waves of nervous anticipation rising. The reality of Sydney's birth is pressing on my mind. To stand before a moment like this is so rare and precious. At times I wonder if colors will look brighter and food taste richer after she is born. As of now I feel comfortable with the way I view the world but change is coming and for the first time I’m scared for it. In the end I think what I will experience is a new form of love. As the moment draws near I am excited to awaken this sense, this love, which I have never known. It all comes down one moment. With such a momentous event one might expect a flash or boom to go off at the start of her life. But like all things, I’m sure this imperceptible moment will swiftly move into the past and I will be left on the other side of the threshold looking back, forever changed.